A Change in Direction

It's been a long time since I properly blogged, I kind of miss it. It was a big part of my life and I would spend a while coming up and writing blog posts. I feel like I've grown as a person from when I was into writing posts back in 2013. I now want to make this blog more about me. By that I mean an outlet for myself and being able to look back on this in the future and seeing what I got up to and how I felt. 

So for anyone who does come across this blog and happens to look back through the posts, I guess i've got some explaining to do. For ease, I will write a list of whats kind of happened since 2013 and disclose a few details which I probably wouldn't have done before:

• I celebrated my 18th birthday back in June 2014 (ages ago). It was a milestone I would have to say, and it happened just as I finished my last exams. It was nice to the see all our close family and friends. 
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• I finished school, and got the grades needed to get into university (yay) 
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• I got in to do Medicine . First year was amazing, so many crazy, surreal moments. I've not only made great friends I've made friends for life. 
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• I've moved away from home. This was a biggie this time in 2014, a big adjustment. But I can honestly say that I'm comfortable and I feel like I've grown as person with this independence. I'd say summer 2014 before coming to uni I felt like a child, I can say with confidence now that I feel like a young adult and I'm proud of that. 
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• I passed first year medical exams and now can officially say i am a 'second year medical student'
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• I've met some amazing patients honestly. If ever I'm in doubt about the career I've chosen, just speaking to the right person can help. It puts everything in perspective and I know how blessed I am to be given this opportunity, I should never take it for granted. 
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• I've moved house! Now this is something big, I have never moved house before however this month on 6th November 2015, I went back home to see the new house. I am excited to see what new memories this house will bring (and I'm even more excited to decorate my room!)

They are just some of the milestones I can think of, I probably will write a follow up post or edit this as and when I remember. I'm excited to start blogging again and documenting may be weekly what its been like. That would be nice, a new angle for this blog, rather than focussing on who is reading, focusing on me. 

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FEAR

Fear is a very big emotion. It can stop you from living your life the way that you want to and it can make your life a misery. I like many people have a lot of fears, fears that can consume my life and make even the best of days the worst. They can play on your mind and keep you up all night. So what do you fear you may ask? 

• I fear commitment. Having someone rely on you and fearing their disappointment if you can't meet their standards. 

• I fear love. Love can make you do crazy things, and it can obscure your judgement. I fear what it can do to other relationships in your life. 

• I fear the death of family members, I fear the death of my mother. My mum is by best friend, she made me who I am today. A day without her, knowing that she might not be there makes me so so so sad, its almost unbearable to think about. 

• I'm fearful of rejection. I'm fearful I will try with people and they will turn their backs on me.

• I fear change, and knowing that everyday people are changing, what happens today will never happen again and what has happened in the past will never return. 

• I'm scared of loneliness. I'm scared that I'll never find that one love and that my friends will one day desert me.
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• I fear the future, how unpredictable it can be. 

I fear fear itself. 

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25 Questions Tag...

I'd thought I would do something different this week and  mix it up with a 25 Questions tag. This is a little out of the ordinary for my posts as normally I stick to inspirational quotes, but I thought I would explore more this year with the variety of content on my blog. I hope you guys don't mind! I think that this would be the perfect opportunity for any regular or new readers to find out more about me. Feel free to leave a link to your 25 questions tag below, so that I can find out more about you guys too! So lets get on with it then...

What is your middle name?
My middle name is Rose

What was/ is your favourite subject at school?
Hmmm... this is a tough one as normally it changes depending on what we are learning. I'd say lately it would have to be Biology but when I was younger I used to enjoy maths. 

What is your favourite drink?
I'm not a huge fan of hot drinks (weird I know) and so my favourite drink would have to be like a nice chilled fruit smoothie.

What is your favourite song at the moment?
Lately I've been liking Sail by AWOLNATION and Riptide by Vance Joy. Tell me what you guys think of these songs! 

What is your favourite food?
I absolutely love love love cheesecake. I know its really unhealthy, and don't worry, I do eat it in moderation! 

What was the last thing you bought?
I bought a new bag yesterday from a shop here in England called Matalan, I must say I love it!

Favourite book of all time?
My favourite book series of all time is defo Harry Potter, and you can read why here. And from the whole book series, I'd say that it's a close call between Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban and Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. 

Favourite Colour?
Yellow.

Do you have any pets?
Unfortunately no. I'd love a puppy though!

Favourite perfume?
It's an oldish one but I love Gucci Rush.

Favourite Holiday?
Venice- Italy, such a beautiful place.

Are you married?
Nope

Have you been out of the country, if so how many times?
Yes, and more times than I can count on my hands!

Do you speak any other language?
I can speak a little bit of french, some German and I can understand a few other languages.

How many siblings do you have?
Two, an older brother and sister.

What is your favourite shop?
Ooh, hard choice!! At the moment though I would have to pick New Look.

Favourite restaurant?
You got to love a bit of Nandos!

When was the last time you cried?
A few days a go.

Favourite blog?
Life of Bon and Sprinkle of Glitter

Favourite Movie?
There is a few; Harry Potter series; Lord of the Rings and probably Batman series.

Favourite TV show?
hmm... currently I'd say New Girl, but it changes all the time.

PC or Mac?
I currently have a PC and so I'd say that but I'll be getting a mac soon!

What phone do you have?
Space grey iPhone 5S

How tall are you?
5ft 7 

Can you cook?
I can cook, although other people may not agree! However, I'm particularly good at desserts and cakes!

And that's all the questions. Feel free to write a similar post, but remember to leave a link below in the comments so I can see it! 

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Thinking of an Angel...

A lot of time can be wasted thinking about what you could have changed in the past, and how things may be different now. Regrets, in my opinion, are one of the worst things that you can have as they not only affect your past but can affect your present and future too.  It's best in these cases, just to let things go. 

The reason that I wrote this post is because recently, someone in my school died a very unexpected death. Not only has that shock the whole school but everyone one in my small village. It made us realise how what we have today can be gone tomorrow. It's important to think about how lucky you are and all the good things that you have in your life. 

You don't want to look back on life when your 80 years old and think, 'Where did all those years go?' You want to think about all those amazing times you had with your friends and family and how much fun  you had and lucky you were. Lots of years can be wasted with regrets and worries. If you are going through a rough patch, just think, things can only get better in the future. Just keep on looking forward and don't look back. 

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